Ever after

I am the greatest fool of all time. The illusions amaze me and
I get so lost.

But see, I love it so. The immensity is so over bearing that sometimes
I can’t speak. The way it creeps up on you, it’s like you had no idea
that it was what you were searching for.

I’m without a foundation so I’m forever finding new branches that
somehow connect with my roots. In one-way or another, it’s this life
or the other. I’m floating around in the ocean while the waves take me.
The resistance was up and now it’s meek. The current pushes me; rough
at times- I never drown.  The waters are constantly tested. But the tests
are never real, just lessons I’ve made up. To understand the way this 

universe never stops.

It’s such a craze that I can never crave because when I do; it’s never
fulfilled. But see, I’m so seduced by the world that I can’t help but get
lost in the rhythms. My thoughts escape me and it’s my only sanity; to be
lost and yet to be so sure of my moments. The soil is fertile today so I
plant my seed and watch it grow.

So I find myself once more. And it’s all forgotten. The mystery I just
experienced becomes a past life and I’ve stopped wandering. Life becomes
logical, black and white, grey at times but I’m colorblind. And again, I’m
looking for something hidden so that I can experience it once more.
My memory is gone and each time is like never before.